My own personal brand of heroin...

I finally got around to starting my new book today, Live a Little. I don't know what took me so long to actually open the book, but I think I have a clue. This whole thing with me finishing all the Stephanie Meyer books has been making me want it more. Last night I continued reading the draft of Edwards perspective of the whole thing. It was leake by someone who Stephanie Meyer worked with. I'm barely finished Chapter 6. It's basically like reading Twilight all over again, just in Edwards perspective rather than Bella. You actually get to see his side and how he feels. I even watched Twilight the movie again online. It's crazy. I've been hooked. I'm more than hooked, I'm addicted. I can't keep doing this to myself; feeing my obsession this way. I won't be able to read another book. But no worries, I'm like this new book of mine. It's not quite interesting, but entertaining at least. It makes me laugh. I'm afraid that if I don't continue reading, I'll be lost and won't be able to read anything else since the Twilight Saga. I really don't want that. I want to continuing reading, exploring my taste and love for books. I still love Stephanie Meyers books, but I don't want this obsession to get too out of control. Like Edward said, "you're like my own personal brand of heorin.." Haha, more like it is.. Well anyway, today is my 29th month anniversay with my boyfriend, Calvin. It's been so long huh? KAKAKACRAZY. Gahh. I have my Anthropology final tomorrow and I'm kinda worried because there is a lot of things that need to be crammed into my little 'ol brain. I don't know. Hopefully I can wing this crap because if not, I won't make it with a B. I will, I'll put my best effort into it. Okay, I don't really know what to say. I'm just babbling. I think I'll go wait for my laundry and read. KK bye

The End

I started Breaking Dawn on Tuesday and now it's Friday. I was suppose to be done last night, but I refused to finish the book so quickly. Instead, I ended up finishing it at Calvin's house before leaving to Navy Exchange. I'm quite sad that I've finished the whole Twilight Saga. I really don't want to say much about the book, because I'm afraid I will spoil it since I've spoiled the other two. Haha. But basically, it's just the wrap up of Edward and Bella's life. Their Happily Ever After so to speak. I wish Stephanie Meyer (author of the Twilight Saga) would continue you with it, but I realizes what more can she say. Bella and Edward meet, they fall in love, they go through a bad thing, they are saved, something bad happens again, they separate, they reunite under circumstances, face through another obstacle, stand tall, realtionship grows, another problem, immortality, another problem, reunite and fight together, then they are forever with each other..the end. It's sad that it's over. Now I have to wait for the movies to come out and then after that, it'll really be over. GAH! I swear, she should just continue it, or write something like that but different. Oh, if you didn't know what Twilight Saga meant it's the whole series of books that contains Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse and Breaking Dawn. All those books are about Edward and Bella's relationship from the time they meet in Twilight, when they separate in New Moon, when they get engaged in Eclipse and when they marry, have a child and Bella becomes a vampire in Breaking Dawn. Okay, I've said too much now, so yes, I suggest you read the series. It's awesome and you'll get hook on page 1! You'll want to keep turning the page until you reach the last page of the last book! It's amazing. Nothing I've read before and it is definitely my favorite book so far!

Okay, I bought two books today. I'm going to start Live a Little by Kim Green either tonight or tomorrow depending on how long it takes me to read ch 9 of my Anthro. book. Then I bought Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher. That's what I'll be reading for the next week or so. I have finals to study for, so I won't be reading at my regular "fast" rate. Haha. It's alright because I will probably end up cramming a lot of books in by the time my semester is over. I have so much on my list. And of course, I still love Robert Pattinson. Haha. I know it's so random. Well, I don't have much to say. I need to put the laundry in the drier and start reading for my final. I have a lot of information to cram inside my little ol' brain by Monday! Until again!

Cold skin; Warm blood.

I finally finished Eclipse today! I know it took my from Thrusday up until now, Monday. But I didn't have much time over the weekend to read because on Friday, I did the laundry. Saturday, I went out with Calvin until late and on Sunday, I was piled with homework. I finished it in between breaks before going to English.

Basically, everything is back to normal because Edward and his family is back with the exception of Jacob breaking his friendship with Bella. He did so because werewolves and vampires are mortal enemies. Bella is torn between her love fir Edward and her attraction to Jacob. Both love her deeply, but she can only choose one. Jacob screens her calls for awhile, but eventually gives in to the friendship because of his feelings. Meanwhile, Bella's graduation is approaching. She must decide soon one who to choose; Stay as a human with her human parents and live her human life with half human Jacob? or be a bloodsucker, with golden eyes, pale white and ice cold skin and live forever with her love Edward? As the decision comes closer, she is afraid of losing Jacob, but also worried she could be hurting Edward. Jacob and Edward continue to fight for Bella's heart, though she was set on becoming a vampire. Edward just waits hoping Bella won't change her mind last minute, while Jacob tries to change Bella's mind Meanwhile, series of deaths happens in Seattle and the Cullens are convinced it's due to newborn vampire and then an intruder goes into Bella's room, stealing a few of her belongings for her scent. And also, Victoria is still trying to get her way to Bella. Edward and his family assume it's the Voltaire, but Jasper is saying that they would never break such rules and release newborns just to get their way. Bella gets an epiphany, putting two in two that Victoria was doing all this. The Cullens agree that this could be it and Jacob gets informed as well. The werewolves and he Cullens make an alliance to defeat Victoria and the newborns. Two nights before the fight, Alice makes an excuse for Bella to sleepover because Bella begged Edward not to fight. In doing so, she does spend the night with the Edward while the rest of the family hunt. That night, Bella decides she wants to give her virtue to Edward. And asks if she can have him. He says yes, but misunderstands and stops he before anything can happen. He told her that he would life to save the virtue and wait until they are married. She gives up and agrees. He also shows her the engagement ring for her, but since Bella as some weird thing about jewelery, she only wore it to see it it fits then takes it off, knowing that their engagement hasn't been exposed. The next day, they camp out in the woods despite the storm, setting a fake trail to lure the newborns to. The next day is the fight. Due to some complications, Victoria noticed that Edward wasn't with the rest and finds the trail to their camp out. In the end, the Cullens and the werewolf pack are triumph. Bella break it to Jacob that she has chosen Edward. She has decided that she cannot live without him; it causes her more pain than the one with Jacob. (Note: Jacob found out about the engagement when her overheard Bella and Edward tlaking about it in the tent. He becomes upset and runs off. Bella gets upset because she hurt Jacob so Edward goes and gets him. Bella and Jacob talk and somehow Jacob tricks Bella into kissing him so he will not die in the fight purposely. After the kiss, Bella realizes she loves Jacob too. But like I said, not as much as she loves Edward.) At the end, Bella finally agrees to Alice's request of having a big wedding rather than running off to Vegas with Edward. She tells Edward that it is time to tell her father, Charlie and asks Edward to place the engagement ring on her finger for real this time.

Okay. I will say that I watched Twilight again on Saturday. I know it's ridiculous, but come on. I love Twilight and I love Robert Pattinson and Bella and Edward. Haha. I couldn't help myself. I'm trying to stop the urge of wanting to watch it for a third time. I don't want to get sick of it. And on Sunday, I finally downloaded the songs on the Twilight Soundtrack. I couldn't download The Score so I will just buy it. It's available in stores tomorrow. I'm debating if I should get it tomorrow or wait, but I am afraid it will be sold out. We'll see.(If you don't know what 'The Score' is, it's just like an exclusive second soundtrack of Twilight.) It's been hectic since this week is the last week of work and then after this week is all finals. I can finally relax. I'm finally looking forward to going to Disneyland this winter break! And then I'm going to concentrate on getting my license and reading Breaking Dawn (The finaly installment of Twilight). And then I'm moving on to other books. But I will eventually reread the Twilight Saga when I don't have much interest in buying a new book. So basically, I'm wrapping up my fall semester and ready to enjoy the break. Christmas is two weeks away and I am excited. Until again!

Love Triangle

Last night around 11 pm, I finished New Moon. It wasn't as great as the first book, but that's just because of the circumstances with Bella and Edward. I don't want to spoil it, so if you never read the book, don't read the rest of this blog. You see, Bella and Edward get separated because Edward feels he puts Bella into much danger when she cuts herself at their house while opening presents. (It was her 18th birthday) Edward had to jump on Bella to keep her safe from his weak brother Jasper who is newest to their diet. While protecting, Edward ended up making Bella bleed more by crashing into things that made her fall into glass. She ended up getting stitches. After that whole incident, Edward was quiet and distant. After a few days, he lied to Bella in order for her to let him go, he told her that he didn't want her anymore. After that, Bella grew into a deep depression from October to January. Until her dad started to get on her case that she was to stop this moping. Bella decides to call her friend Jessica, who she ahsn't spoken to in awhile since Edward. They hang out at Port Angeles. Bella runs into some men in front a bar and she's drawn to confront them. (You'll know why if you read the first book.) But right as she gets closer to the men, Edwards voice appears like a hallcuination, but not the kind of thoughts she thinks of and it hurts her, but it soothes and makes her feel better. The beautiful voice of Edward's tells her not to do anything stupid or childish. (Before he left her, he made her promise not to do anything to hurt herself.) Ever since then, Bella tried to think of reckless things to do, just to hear his voice because no matter how hard she tried to revive the voice again, it ended up becoming painful and opening up the hoel in her heart even more. She then spots a pair of motorcycles and picks them up with mischieve in her eyes, knowing it was a recklass thing. She takes them to her friend Jacob Black who it willing to fix them. As he does, Bella and Jacob get closer and for some reason, she feels good with him. Starts to need him. But once their apart, she feels that same dreaded feeling. She gets nightmares and wakes up screaming. (This started happening when Edward left) Then Jacob gets sick, but once he's better, he tries to avoid Bella. She does everything to see him until she does. He says hurtful words to her and break his promise to never hurt her and always be there for her. That same night, he jumps into her window and makes her remember something. She then remembers the stories he once told her when they first saw each other and finds out Jacob Black is a werewolf. She doesn't mind at all, come on. How can she when she dated a vampire for 6 months? Haha. Everything is back to normal, now the werewolves can protect Bella from Victoria. (James' mate from the first book. She wants revenge for Edward killed James.) Jacobs leaves to go hunt for Victoria. Bella grows anxious as she waits for Jacon on the beach of La Push. She realizes she hasn't heard Edwards voice in awhile so she decides to go cliff diving without Jacob. As she tips her body against the cliff, Edwards voice tells her to stop, but she just smiles and lets herself fall until she hits the river. It was such a rush, but then she realizes the current is too much. Edward's voice comes and he's angry, telling her to swim. She tries, but the current is too strong. Eventually Jacob rescues her. As he drives her home, she spots one of the Cullen cars. She lets Jacob leave because vampires and werewolves are mortal enemies. She goes inside, but she's convincing herself it's not Edward. She finds it's Alice and she is surprises. Alice has a vision that Bella jumped off a cliff (which she did) and headed flew to her. She was convinced that Bella had died. She told Edward about the vision, but not the part of Bella being dead. They catch up and Bella is happy. But she's afriad that she'll fall back into her depress state once Alice leaves. Until a misunderstanding occurs. Jacob answers the phone and think it's Carlisle at the other line. Jacob tells him that Charlie isn't home and that he's at the funeral. Alice comes out now. (ALice left when Jacob came to see Bella.) Bella wonders why Alice's face looks worries. She tells Bella that she saw a vision of Edward. Alice calls Rosalie asking to talk to Carlisle, but he's out. She also asked if she heard from Edward. Rosalie tells Alice that she told Edward that Bella is dead; now he's going to Voltaire to ask to die. Bella doesn't understand when Alice is telling her this. She explains that Carlisle just called at the house and told her what Jacon said. Alice realizes that it wasn't Carlisle at all. It was Edward. He was going to Voltair to commit sucide. He was going to do something the Voltaire didn't like so he could get killed. This is wear Bella and Alice decided to stop Edward. Jacob tries to convince Bella to stay, but Bella cannot. She must rescue Edward. Bella arrives barely stopping Edward. At first, he believes he's dead, until other vampires come and confront Edward. (you'll understand if you read the book) They are forced to go to the Castle to talk to Aro, the master. ( won't explain much because it's too much. Haha.) They end up leaving alive with Alice's promise to Aro to change Bella into immortal. Once they fly back, Bella is afraid Edward will leave her again. She tries to stay awake on the way home but she is to tired and eventually falls asleep. Edward brings her home, Charlie is furious. He tells Charlie he will just put her upstairs and leave, but Bella can hear and she panickes. Edward tells her he wont be far. When she awakes, she thinks she is dreaming that Edward is by her side. Edward tells her the truth on why he left. And tells her that he lied. He tells her he loves her. She is not convinced she is not dreaming. So then, they talk for awhile until Bella wants to go to his house and take a vote for immortality. Edward clenches, but takes her anyway. She explains to the Cullen family about the whole thing of becoming a vampire and also Aro's threat to come find Bella and kill her if she isn't immortal. Edward explains how he can get her out of that but the vote goes on. Everyone votes yes besides Edward and Rosalie. Rosalie said sorry to Bella on the way home from Voltaire and all is forgiven. (I forgot to mention) But Rosalie tells Bella that she says no to Bella becoming a vampire not because she doesn't want Bella as a sister, it's because she never thought of her life as becoming a vampire and she wishes someone said No for her before she was turned. Edward gets upset that the vote is 5 to 2. Bella remembers Alice's promise on the way to Voltaire that Alice will change Bella herself. She mentions this and Alice panickes. She is afraid that she isn't ready. She might end up killing Bella. She then turns to Carlisle and he shall do it. Edward is panicking, telling her she can't do it now because of Charlie and Renee(Bella's parents). They talk, and decide after graduation when Bella moves out, then Carlisle can do the transformation. But of course, the issue is not dropped until Edward asked Bella, "if she could have anything in the world, anything at all, what would it be?" She told Edward that she would want instead of Carlisle, it will be him to change her. He then asked her what she would be willing to trade for it and she said anything. He then mentioned 5 years and she said no. Then 3, still a no. Bella then suggested 6 months and he said that it wasn't enough. She then told him that 1 year was her limit and he asked why she couldn't give him 2. She told him that she'll be 19, but not 20 since he's still in his teens. So then he told her to forget the time limit, but do it for one condition. The condition was to marry him first. At first she thought he wasn't serious, but she understands. She doesn't directly say yes, but I think we all know the answer. After awhile, she and Jacob become distant having the Cullens back in town. Bella loves Edward, but she still wants to keep her friendship with Jacob. What a difficult thing to do. She is now grounded, unable to leave the house unless for school or work. But Edward is allowed at certain a certain with Charlie around, but of course, when Charlie is asleep, he sneaks through her window and stays.
Basically, this book is mostly about Bella and Jacob's friendship and how he woke her up from her depression. But in the end, she still went back to Edward. After all, he's all she wants.

Yup, that's basically the whole story. I started Eclipse today, which is the sequel to New Moon. Basically the continuation of Bella, Edward and Jacob with the rest. So far so good. But the conflict between vampire and werewolf is rising.

I finally watched Twilight in theaters on Tuesday. I was so excited when Calvin suggest we watch in music class. I was so anxious. I never felt that excited in sooo long. Anyway, the movie is the same as the book but not entirely. I mean the significant parts are there, but because the book is only on one perspective (Bella's) it's hard to describe in words since a lot of what Bella feels is in her head. The book is way more intense and passionate. But the movie is great too. Not as good as the book, but it was still the best. I loved it and I would watch it again and again! I can' wait until New Moon comes. So exciting. Hah. I love Robert Pattinson. (He plays Edward) I thought he wasn't all that great, but boy was I wrong. He totally embraced Edward's character. it's crazy. But yeah, I don't want tospoil it. I'm going to do my Math hw and then read.

With me and Calvin, I don't want to discuss our relationship stuff in public, so then I'll just say we have our days. But we'll get through it. Right?

Flightless bird...American mouth

Today I finished Twilight. I haven't watched the movie but I plan to. So anyway, we all know it's about a 17 year old teenager in high school who falls irrevocably in love with a 108 year old vampire. Crazy. it took me from Thrusday to today (Monday) to finish the 500 page book. It took me long huh? It's only because I didn't want it to end. Haha. I took my time, only reading a few chapters a night. And I'm going to tell you now, that I am in love with it. I'm in love with the boy who has bronze hair, golden eyes and pale icy, cold skin. Haha. Edward Cullen. He's... I don't know. I can't fathom the thought of the feelings or even the words. Just take my word for it and read the book. I don't know how good the movie will be, but hopefully I'll love it just as much as the book. I bought the sequeal to it, New Moon. I will be starting it tonight. GAH. People say I won't like this one because of the whole Edward and Bella thing. (That's the main characters names. I apologize for not pointing out.) But yes. The book is awesome. It's my ultimate favorite as of right now. GAHHH. Hahaha. EC<3>